VIDEO! Is there a download of Tila Tequila’s Ustream video on Shawne Merriman? The Tila Tequila Ustream video proves that if you were one of Tila’s million plus followers, you certainly hope you were following her Wednesday night.

If you weren’t, the question remains – is there hope in a video download?

Thursday, sites began to debate what really was going on with Tila Tequila during her Wednesday night Ustream Video Rant about Shawne Merriman and more.

But LALATE has profiled Tila Tequila’s light night online activities for over a year. For example, after two attempts Shots at Love, on July 18 2008, Tila was asking hot girls in Los Anglees to get her their cellphone number to come over to Tila’s house. In her myspace bulletin message that night, Tila said

“Excuse me ladies .. but I just now got back from my trip to Chi Town and I totally fell in love with this … girl … DODD why can’t she live in LA? …. So I don’t know what I’m trying to say here … but pretty much any hot ladies living in LA who wanna hang out tonight and have a GIRLS ONLY party at my house … hit me back right now you hot … Leave me your number and I will give you call and we’ll hang out tonight … and maybe have …”

So the question remains – following what happened with Tila on Ustream on Wednesday night, is that cause for alarm of a woman perhaps “pushed … over the edge”, as her rep says to TMZ, or is that simple Tila being Tila?

On Wednesday night, Tila took to Ustream reportedly engaging in behavior that was described by sites today as often bizarre, featuring a weapon, and more. During the recording, which has since been removed, Tila tells viewers

“I am an angel .. because I am here to save the world with my army … people call me an attention w-re… but excuse me I’m a grown … woman and I’m confident in myself.”

“I think a woman’s body is a beautiful thing .. taht’s why I’m a lesbian. I was born [unclothed] .. anyboy who is against that is gay and in denial”.